PEACE & REFLECTION
I’m beyond trying to figure out a way to kill him. My ego was bruised…no need to be pedantic about it. It’s not like I was devastated…close but no cigar. Time to put it behind me like an old episode of The Young and The Restless. One day left in the grieving process.
A hundred days have made me older,
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face,
A thousand lies have made me colder,
And I don’t think I can look at this the same. 
I don’t want to be bitter…and I truly believe that I will be blessed with a soul that’s a thousand times better than the fool who hath been.
Tell me a story,
Where we all change,
And we'd live our lives together,
And not estranged.
I didn't lose my mind it was
Mine to give away,
Couldn't stay to watch me cry,
You didn't have the time,
So I softly slip away...
No regrets they don't work,
No regrets now they only hurt.
Sing me a love song,
Drop me a line,
Suppose it's just a point of view,
But they tell me I'm doing fine. 
I’m no longer Sade’s King of Sorrow. I didn't like him enough and besides, I respect myself too much.
I won't suffer, be broken, get tired, or wasted.
Surrender to nothing, or give up what I,
Started and stopped it, from end to beginning.
A new day is coming, and I am finally free
Run away, run away, I'll attack…Run away, run away, go chase yourself
Run away, run away, now I'll attack
Your promises, they look like lies. Your honesty, like a back that hides a knife,
I promise you)…I promise you…And I am finally free! 
An eerie peace envelopes me….its only eerie because I don’t do peace. I wouldn’t be able to recognise it if it smacked me in the face. I eat an apple, to make sure it’s real and that it lasts the duration of my crunching and munching.
Its a shame in a way cause
I feel that I may not ever find the right one for me,
Did I leave him, is he right in front of my face,
Will my true love ever be?
Why would I go on a search again,
When I know what the end will be,
What good is love when it keeps on hurting me?
…I’m not missing you,
I’m not going through the motions
Waiting and then hoping you’d call me,
I’m not missing you,
You might have had me open
But I must be coping because,
I’ve got lots to do,
I know I'm usually hanging on,
I used to hate to see you gone,
But this time its different.
I don't even feel the distance.
I'm not missing,
I'm not missing you. 
The initial hatred has dissipated. I no longer wish to peel off his skin with a carving knife, rub salt in the wounds and then burn his house down with him strapped inside...
Cool breeze and autumn leaves, Slow motion daylight
A lone pair of watchful eyes, Oversee the living
Feel the presence all around, A tortured soul,
A wound unhealing, No regrets or promises,
The past is gone, But you can still be free,
If time will set you free, Time now to spread your wings ,
To take to flight, The life endeavour,
Aim for the burning sun… 
Some more Chocolate…The Lord Almighty’s way of having mercy on women-kind.
In this farewell, there’s no blood, there’s no alibi
‘Cause I’ve drawn regret from the truth of a thousand lies…..
….Put to past, what you thought of me.
While I clean this slate, with the hands, of uncertainty.
So let mercy come and wash away, what I’ve done. 
I don’t think for a couple of hours…and I didn’t even have to take any drugs…ah bliss.
I’m doin’ just fine,
Getting along very well,
Without you in my life.
I don’t need you in my life.
I’m doin’ just fine,
Time made me stronger,
You’re no longer on my mind. 
And now? On to the next chapter…Back to the Gym for a start.
Heaven help the heart, that lets me inside.
Heaven help the one, who comes in my life.
Heaven help the fool, that walks through my door.
‘Cause I’ve decided right now, I’m ready for love.