Monday, 8 June 2009

Location: My office

Time: 15:33pm

Mood: Philosophically Contemplative

Listening to: The endless whining & moaning from the bitches around here

Drinking: English Tea

Eating: Imaginary scones with strawberry jam

Talking: To myself in a British accent

Wondering: What else can go wrong on this horrid day

Druming: My fingers on the oak desk

Thinking: Perhaps I shall become a murderer by the end of this day

Feeling: Aristocratically and surreptitiously insane

Waiting: To leave it all behind

Reading: Between the lies

Wanting: Desperatley, to be a squa-jillionaire

Craving: My beloved chocolate

Saying: It's only a matter of time


This is officially my 10th week of chocolatelessness. I would like to say that it was worth it, and that everyone should try it. Unfortunately the only good thing to come out of it all was that I got to save some money. Other than that, it was a total and complete waste of time. Lack of chocolate just breeds misery, especially when you’re surrounded by or come into contact with more than your fair share of assholes. And when one is miserable, one tends to overcompensate in other areas…like unnecessary carbo loading. So in reality, you’re not healthier because your body needs a certain amount sugar and will do whatever it takes to get that sugar, whether it’s from chocolate or starch. Moderation is key I guess.

It's been a monstrous and trying 3 weeks, I can't even begin to explain. I'm sure this is what some part of hell looks like. But I'm more determined than ever to get to where I need to be. At the moment though, I feel like I need to get away from my reality. It's driving me nuts. I'm tired, jaded, weary, fatigued, depleted, exhausted...I need some fresh air, literally and figuratively speaking.

Johnny Depp said it best "Money doesn't buy you happiness. But it buys you a big enough yacht to sail right up to it".

7 comments:

  1. Hey dudette, does this mean u are done with financial reporting and all that other filthy stuff? I am officially freeee and sailing on to the "promised land" within the next two weeks!

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  2. 1. Chocolate -- in moderation.

    There's nothing inherently "wrong" with taking a hostage at work, but the end result is that your chocolate intake will be controlled by others.

    2. Money -- comes and goes.

    If you're good at what you do, the world will beat a path to your door. I tell people not to worry because "the job finds you". It sounds like some sort of cheap Zen when I listen to myself, but it's absolutely true.

    3. Happiness -- is about freedom.

    Money doesn't buy happiness but it buys freedom. And freedom is good. What you do with the freedom allows you to put yourself in a position of less anxiety. Some people who are obsessed with money find more anxiety with more money. Freedom is about balance.

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  3. WIP - I'm done with everything except Law :/ which happens tomorrow! Yay for you :)

    LL - I want to spend my life on a beautiful beach and not have to worry about anything. I wait for the day :)

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  4. I gave you 2 choc bunnies. you can try biting their heads off. Could be doubly satisfying.

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  5. Of course

    Johnny Depp cant go wrong, how wonderful it must have been to be able tp say all the right things, especially if they are being written by others ...

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  6. OH - Thanx!! I LOVE chocolate bunnies :D

    Tazeen - I was looking at him and thinking, how wonderful it must be to be Johnny Depp...he still looks so good and has his own island :)

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