It's one of those days where I feel like tagging myself in every random stranger's photo's on Facebook.
Or maybe mimicking a friend's FB profile by changing everything on my profile - copying everything from their profile pics to their names and statues. I can just imagine the initial befuddlement and then solid confusion as they sit there and wonder why they have two profiles - before reality dawns.
I only get like this when I'm frustrated. I realise that Recklessness is one of my defense mechanisms. It begs for behaviour that provokes and elicits some sort of outrageous reaction from the other party - the kind of reaction I probably secretly wish to have myself but want to identify or recognise in others.
So essentially, on days like these, I only feel normal and happy when I can watch other people go crazy. Put it like that, and I sound like some sort of psychopath. Perhaps. I guess it's more fun to watch someone else pull at their hair follicles than it is to go through those emotions and experience them yourself.
I'm tired. It's not a physical thing. I'm just tired. Tired of this world and its petty people and its perpetual issues and the never ending grind. Everything is a fucking issue. No matter where you go or who you talk to. And everyday it's just more of the same. I don't know what's worse, that it's the same shit on a different day, or that we lie to ourselves, thinking that things are / will be different.
Geez, that sounds more cynical and negative than I intend it to be. Negative is not my style. Yet some truths cannot be hidden.
We're all in the same game. Just different levels. Dealing with the same hell. Just different Devils.
Dear Lord, I'm so ready for some great changes. Key words being great changes. No more bull kaka please. Thanks.