Wednesday, 26 December 2012

Still learning those lessons

I'm sure everyone (and their Grandma) has heard me complain at some point in the last 12 months, about how utterly exhausted am I. And that was my reality until Monday the 24th of December 2012, when out of the blue, a colleague of mine made a rather astute observation. She said: "You don't look so tired today". And it was like a bell going off *ding-ding-ding* when I suddenly realised: "You know what? For some reason, I'm not"

So it turns out the Mayans accurately predicted the end of my year long rendezvous with mental, physical and emotional E&F (exhaustion and fatigue). I'm still not up for any more OTT parties this year (gosh had my fair share of those over the last 6 months), but for the most part there has been a definite shift in cosmic energy (for me at least). 

It's been a year of highs and lows but overall, 2012 has been one of the toughest and most fascinating years for me. I've never been more comfortable in my own skin and at the same time, never been so out of my element either. I have never been so well behaved throughout an entire year (no need for any major dragon-fire fights for me) and yet I had been tested on every level imaginable. So maybe I've finally grown up eh?
Or maybe, some things seem less important then they were in previous years. And maybe I'd rather sit out this round in the back seat, than navigate up front while holding the steering wheel. 

So what have I learned this year and what's changed? So many, many things. I use to mock people working in banks (my own cousins included - goodnaturedly of course) and then I found myself right there (and thoroughly enjoying it) thereby sending home the message: you never know where your destiny lies and the very thing you think will make you miserable, could be the best thing that has ever happened to you. And sometimes, the things (and people) that you think are absolutely wonderful and you cannot live without, are mere obstacles on your way to true happiness and you are indeed better off without them.

And the crux of it: in life you just never know. You may have your ideas and plans, or an inkling or a sixth sense guiding you, but you never really truly know - until it arrives on your metaphorical doorstep, in your present. And all we can do is be open to the opportunities that life throws at us and have the courage to make things happen, and move on when it doesn't work out. 

This year I've been more grateful than I've been in a long time. I've learned about the absolute power in respecting my environment. When you respect your surroundings and the world, it paves the way for great things. I've met the most amazing people from all over the world throughout the year from whom I've learned a great many things. 

Some of them showed me the world through their eyes, emphasizing our connected-ness in the fabric of humankind. Others taught me that it's quite possible to possess absolute social-political power and status, without allowing it to dehumanize the soul. Then there were those who revealed in themselves the true meaning of friendship. All of them rewarding and enriching experiences, and I am a better person for it.

Going forward I know that life will be as unpredictable as it's always been and that there are many more lessons to learn, but I can trust that it will go on as it has before and that I will emerge from it a stronger and wiser person. Wishing all my readers, near and far, all the best for the year ahead. There will be good times, and there will be times we wish the end is neigh... but we continue to live. As always.

43 comments:

  1. This is why I like you more than any of my other blog friends, Az. Just don't tell them, you hear? :) Well, 2012 most certainly has been one of the toughest years for me, but I, unlike you, have never been more uncomfortable in my own skin. But I'm sure it's only temporary. Some things - and people - ARE less important than they were in previous years. There's no doubt about it, though I'm not sure it has anything to do with growing up in my case. It's more a matter of getting older slash experience full stop, which is not the same.

    I'm glad to hear you're not tired anymore. I know that's a drag. Yes, we never know what life has in store for us, but I do know one thing: unexpected things are just bound to happen. They always do, good and bad.

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    1. I just hope those unexpected things are GOOD / GREAT things Randy...

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    2. I'm keeping my fingers crossed. All of them...

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  2. Beautifully said! And here's to even more wisdom and insight in 2013!

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  3. Here's to your strength, happiness and bunches and bunches of good days, in 2013.

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    1. Thank you Happy Whisk, I wish the same for you :)

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  4. Life she is weird. Embrace it!

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    1. Yes, here's to embracing the great and shrugging off the bad, all the best Aasia.

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  5. Azra, your 2012 sounds a lot like mine. And I'm glad that you got so many great things out of it. I hope that I'm growing UP and learning more about myself but I also realize that there is so much more that I don't know and shouldn't discount so easily. Best wishes to a wonderful and exciting 2013!

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    1. Best wishes to you too Ruth! Hope 2013 brings everything you've ever wanted and more :)

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  6. nice to meet you thanks for stopping by my blog pleased your year has been good over all have a great 2013

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    1. A great 2013 for you too Rebecca!

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  7. love Winnie:)) and love your pic of facebook!

    but why this lovely blue man you know make you blonde????haha!
    Az hope this next year will be wonderful to you!!

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    1. I love Winnie too Gloria. Thanks for your compliments. And I don't understand why Randy always makes me blonde! Hahaha

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    2. It's a wig. What's there not to understand :D

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    3. And there aren't any dark brown wigs Randy? LOL!! Anyway, I'm liking my new blonde do.

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  8. dept of sport and recreation????? absolutely nice!!

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    1. I will add you to my department of Foreign Affairs Gloria :)

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  9. If you want to turn your life around you could always get a full body tattoo, buy a motorcycle and drive -- wherever. However, I think that you have life wrapped up rather well, Azra. Drastic measures aren't required. I know 2013 will be a great year for you.

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    1. I'd rather buy a yacht and sail off the coast of Greece LL. You're welcome to join if you feel so inclined. A great 2013 for you too :)

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  10. I was looking for inspiration today and found it here. ~hugs~ Finding yourself sure is tiring isn't it? :) I hope your 2013 is as amazing as you are.

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    1. Angie, I'm glad you found some inspiration here - although you know I think you're pretty inspiring all by yourself! Hope only wonderful things for you in 2013 :)

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  11. Well written. I love it. I love how I can totally feel how you feel through the words you said. I know, though not exactly like yours, how it feels to live days that's very stressful. Christmas vacation is one of those days I totally look forward to because I know, although it's kind of stressful because of the holiday rush, it diverts us to something stressful yet joyful celebrations with family and the people we love. ;)

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    1. Hope you're having a lovely Festive Season Debie Grace - and all the best for 2013! :)

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    1. I'm dancing I'm dancing! Why don't I have you on Facebook?

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    2. Because blue people aren't allowed on there?

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  13. Only I say why Grumpy make you blonde??
    also you are a lovely brunette:)

    Happy new year Az:)

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  14. Hear, Hear, Azra! Nicely put. Apparently, or so I've been told by mythical beings, we did all reach a higher sense of awareness on the day the world ended as we once knew it. How about that then!

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    1. I definitely feel a change Juliette. It's weird, but true - and I've always been spiritually sensitive and a tad psychic. All the best for the New Year! :)

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    2. I walked into my classroom and said,' I didn't prepare today's lesson. I expected all of you to be dead.' You should've seen their faces...

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  15. I totally agree with you. You can plan as much as you like, but only time will tell if your plans pay off or not.

    A very happy new year to you!

    If you hadn't already noted, I have changed my blog URL. Please unfollow me and follow me again at closingpandorasboxx.blogspot.co.uk . Thanks! :)

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    1. Happy New Year Nas, and I will be sure to change your URL :)

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  16. You, my friend, are fabulous. I'm so glad I "met" you earlier this year and that we became bloggy friends. Wishing you oodles of health, joy, safety and love for the New Year (and beyond). xox

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    1. I can only be fabulous because of you dear Pretzel Thief. I'm glad I got to meet you too and I feel honoured to have a glimpse into your life. All the best for the New Year ahead! :)

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  17. Well, I'm glad the exhaustedness has lifted! And your right sometimes the most unexpected things are the happiest.

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    1. Hope the New Year is treating you well Deidre! :)

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  18. Glad to hear one of us has grown up. ;) I sometimes feel like I'm regressing! Can anyone say arrested development over here?

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    1. No, I don't think you're regressing. Often we can't see how things or how we have changed with the times until further down the road. I think you and D-Man have done pretty well in 2012. On to a new chapter!

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