I'm sure everyone (and their Grandma) has heard me complain at some point in the last 12 months, about how utterly exhausted am I. And that was my reality until Monday the 24th of December 2012, when out of the blue, a colleague of mine made a rather astute observation. She said: "You don't look so tired today". And it was like a bell going off *ding-ding-ding* when I suddenly realised: "You know what? For some reason, I'm not".
So it turns out the Mayans accurately predicted the end of my year long rendezvous with mental, physical and emotional E&F (exhaustion and fatigue). I'm still not up for any more OTT parties this year (gosh had my fair share of those over the last 6 months), but for the most part there has been a definite shift in cosmic energy (for me at least).
It's been a year of highs and lows but overall, 2012 has been one of the toughest and most fascinating years for me. I've never been more comfortable in my own skin and at the same time, never been so out of my element either. I have never been so well behaved throughout an entire year (no need for any major dragon-fire fights for me) and yet I had been tested on every level imaginable. So maybe I've finally grown up eh?
Or maybe, some things seem less important then they were in previous years. And maybe I'd rather sit out this round in the back seat, than navigate up front while holding the steering wheel.
So what have I learned this year and what's changed? So many, many things. I use to mock people working in banks (my own cousins included - goodnaturedly of course) and then I found myself right there (and thoroughly enjoying it) thereby sending home the message: you never know where your destiny lies and the very thing you think will make you miserable, could be the best thing that has ever happened to you. And sometimes, the things (and people) that you think are absolutely wonderful and you cannot live without, are mere obstacles on your way to true happiness and you are indeed better off without them.
And the crux of it: in life you just never know. You may have your ideas and plans, or an inkling or a sixth sense guiding you, but you never really truly know - until it arrives on your metaphorical doorstep, in your present. And all we can do is be open to the opportunities that life throws at us and have the courage to make things happen, and move on when it doesn't work out.
This year I've been more grateful than I've been in a long time. I've learned about the absolute power in respecting my environment. When you respect your surroundings and the world, it paves the way for great things. I've met the most amazing people from all over the world throughout the year from whom I've learned a great many things.
Some of them showed me the world through their eyes, emphasizing our connected-ness in the fabric of humankind. Others taught me that it's quite possible to possess absolute social-political power and status, without allowing it to dehumanize the soul. Then there were those who revealed in themselves the true meaning of friendship. All of them rewarding and enriching experiences, and I am a better person for it.
Going forward I know that life will be as unpredictable as it's always been and that there are many more lessons to learn, but I can trust that it will go on as it has before and that I will emerge from it a stronger and wiser person. Wishing all my readers, near and far, all the best for the year ahead. There will be good times, and there will be times we wish the end is neigh... but we continue to live. As always.