Sunday, 21 January 2018

Close the door

It's been a busy 3 weeks and the New Year is already packing a punch. I managed to find some time to head home to South Africa for a few days to run some errands, get mayonnaise and real cheese, and head to the Doctors.

I haven't been well for some time and I have a long history of visiting useless Doctors, and going for years without anyone being able to tell me what was wrong (it took a very gifted Chiropractic to just look at me and tell that I was allergic to wheat). But I figured I'd take a few days off and make the effort of going to see my personal GP and have him recommend me to some specialists. I didn't get time to do all the things I needed to do, but I did make it back to the desert with some very expensive quality mayonnaise and some real cheese.

Somehow, during the entire week, I couldn't escape feeling that for the first time in my 35 years on earth, I'm beginning to see and understand just how complicated and difficult life is. I mean, I always knew it was no breeze, but there was always an optimism... a thought that we could navigate the stormy waters and with the right attitude and patience, it was possible to get through anything... but through various interactions with family members and friends I'm actually seeing a different picture and feeling the agony of the complexity of life for the first time (on an entirely different level).

I honestly don't know what to make of this. I think I might go into the desert and I might just stay there.

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  1. Visiting useless doctors... but somehow they always manage to take your money.

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  2. Azra!

    "get mayonnaise and real cheese”
    Priorities!

    I’m sorry you haven’t been well. So, a wheat allergy. That must be difficult to contend with. However, you can have cheese.

    Life is always difficult. It has layers and layers of complexity. Find your own path, your own joy and bring what you can to the equation is my advice, for what its worth.

    The desert looks fabulous.

    Good to see you back in Blogland :)

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    1. I will re-iterate what Blue said "JULES!".
      Nice to see you too. I not only have a wheat allergy, but I'm allergic to soya too. So no more chocolate for me...

      But I hear you. It's always going to be challenging at some point.

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    2. Not to mention that you're allergic to BS.

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  3. Hopefully all of the doctors' visits went well. Isn't that just the way with adult life? I'm not convinced that anyone has it quite figured out and those who think they do are just lying to themselves. How's that for optimism on a Monday?

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    1. You have just the right amount of optimism for my Mondays Ruth!
      :D

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  4. That's why, apparently, the happiest people in the world are those in remote villages without all the advantages and stresses of modern-day life. Maybe worth a try if you can somehow get time to live an isolated life for a while....

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    1. I live pretty isolated now dreamlife (not THAT isolated, but I'm still on my own most of the time) - I feel like the world has just gotten to a place where it is difficult to go back from. And life is so fleeting... one minute we're here and the next we're all gone.

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